I finally did it. I have been telling myself for years I would get here and I never did. I longed to go, couldn't wait to see it but always felt like I couldn't do it alone, but I did. I did what I said I would do and I followed through. It feels good to say something and actually do what you said you were going to do. I have a list a mile long and today feels like the start of checking those things off the list. Something so small and peaceful took me so many years to finally just do.
I have never felt so ready in all my life to take control over doing the things I long to do to find my peace and happiness. I feel so strongly about what is happening in my life and I feel like I am shedding a layer of skin that no longer serves me and I feel so much lighter. A new chapter has started for me and I think it happened a while ago but I never actually sat down to write it and then read it. Life is crazy like that and it really has a way of getting the best of you and if you're anything like me you can fall so easily into the trap of not getting things done.
Recently I have felt a sense of calmness and I don't know how else to explain it other than that it's time to be the person I have longed to be for such a very long time. That fire that burns inside of us all that we dim for far too long is finally starting to feel like it's shining a little brighter than it ever has before for me. I think a lot of us are experiencing the same kind of an awakening and it's making people ask themselves a lot of questions. Some we want to know the answers to right away and some we don't. Either way they are coming and it's time to shut up and listen.
I have said for years I would take the drive and come to this beautiful place and today I finally did it.I sat in such a beautiful quiet place and I watched a bee land on my shoe, I admired the most beautiful crane fly over me multiple times and never could capture the picture and finally realized I had to just put the phone down and just watch with my own eyes. I felt magic all around me. It was in the air, the wind, the grass and the water. There were winged insects and animals surrounding me all over this beautiful place and it was quiet and serene.
Finding our happiness is possible and it doesn't matter where it is found or how long it may take us. What I am starting to realize is that in order to get to our true happiness we need to find our peace. Our priorities nowadays tend to get a little out of order in this day and age and I think the world is really trying to tell us something. There are so many moments that are lost and days we won't ever get back. There are so many things we say we want to do and we never end up doing. Places we want to see and never get to see them. We waste time waiting for the right moment or for the right person to help us get there. There is no right moment and the right person lives inside all of us. We all have to find our own peace and happiness, and then if we are really lucky we may even find someone to share it with.
-XO
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